I think part of becoming a somewhat adult, which I guess is what I am attempting to do at this juncture, comes with finding a modicum of control over your daily life. Growing up, you’re usually herded from thing to thing; you go to school, you go to college, you go to parties, it’s all very simple, really. You follow a path, and to a certain extent you decide where that path will take you, but for the most part you are just following whatever colour brick road you choose.
That’s part of what’s so hard about starting you’re life after college. You’ve followed the brick road, but you walked to fast and the brick layers haven’t gotten far enough ahead and now they are looking at you to direct them which way to continue building the road. (I may have taken that metaphor just a touch too far.)
It’s difficult to figure out where your life is headed once the set path ends, so finding a little bit of control in your life can make a lot of difference. It can be a difficult change, but even harder than that change is turning back. I just came off a week of seeming independence, and as much as I missed my parents and as glad as I am that they are back, it’s hard for me to snap right back into my old routine. Those small things I had control over are no longer in my control, and I think it’s just as important as an adult to realize that that’s okay too.
I guess, as an adult, you should be able to take care of things on your own, but you should also be able to let things get taken care of. No one likes a micro-manager. Maybe things aren’t exactly the way I’d like them to be, but I’m okay still.