I really wanted to post a Playlist today, but computer circumstances made that unfortunately impossible. I was disappointed because I really wanted to give you guys a “real” blog today. I’ve been spending a lot of time stressing out about my upcoming move, and because that’s on my mind, it’s what goes into my blog. It’s a relief in a way, because for so long I wanted to mention things about England or about moving abroad that I had to hide because I wasn’t ready to share the news with everyone yet. Now that I can, I find that it’s taken over and I don’t want that. I want to share, but I also want variety, and I want my lovely readers and friends to be happy as well.
I wasn’t prepared for the getting ready. I psyched myself up for how hard it will be once I’m actually in England. I know that I will probably be lonely and homesick, and that I will miss my mom, and not know anything about the city around me. I’m prepared for lots of downtime and lots of hard work. But I wasn’t prepared for how scared I’d be beforehand. I didn’t know it would be so hard before it got hard.
I find myself reaching out in all directions, hoping there will be someone to guide me or at least comfort me, and to my absolute blessing I have friends who are there to give me hugs or talk to people they know or just distract me for a while until things start to feel better. In some ways, having those people here now makes it harder to leave them, and I have to constantly remind myself that being on a different continent does not mean I will lose contact. My sister is in Africa and I talk to her every few days.
I will just have to find someone to hug.
(Tomorrow regular blogs will resume, provided I do not have another nervous breakdown)